Wow!

I really wish that I had kept up with this better. My life has gone through so many ups and downs since I last wrote. I guess I should do some sort of update, huh? Well, let’s see…

1. Erica and I are talking again, so atleast we don’t hate each other.

2. I now have a house for Zoey and myself.

3. I’m going to move to Maumelle, AR here in about 4 months.

4. I have been put on medication because I am bi-polar (and a cancer…watch out!).

5. The medication actually isn’t very helpful.

6. I did get the job at HSPM, and have been working here since Dec 26. *** I really like it, so when I move I’m going to commute (1.25 hrs). ***

7. I’ve been talking to so many different people, and met so many new people, it’s kinda crazy.

8. I’m finally starting to have money and get my life straightened out.

9. Zoey is spoiled rotten and doesn’t listen worth a shit, but I can’t help but love her cute little self.

10. I joined a gym and started working out Mar 6, and have currently (as of last weekend) lost 12 lbs. 

I guess that will have to do for now. So much more happened, but I’m afraid it will be skipped as I don’t have enough time to replay 4 months worth of my life. lol! I hope I can remember to do this everyday that I’m here (no computer at home now). I like having it to read back over. It’s crazy how much life changes in a matter of 4 months, you know??? I NEVER imagined that my life would be anything like it is now when I started this blog. The good thing is, that I’ve definitely grown from this experience. I am completely independent. It’s an awesome feeling. I mean, I’m only eighteen. I mowed the yard for the first time last week. hehe. It was exhilarating (sp?). Well, I guess I should get back to work. That is the reason I’m here.

Oh My!

Well, so much has happened since I last posted that I’m not sure I have time to type it all. Let me just give you the short version. Erica and I were together for two and one half years. We broke up right before Christmas. Now, barely two weeks later, she has a new “girlfriend.” (I do feel the need to add that this girl is not pretty, besides the fact that Erica “hated” her prior to our breaking up.) Now, back to the story. I moved out (i’m currently staying with a friend.), and left everything but my clothes and my truck. What did Erica do?? She took the truck. Of course, because a house full of stuff wasn’t good enough for her. She had to take the only thing that I had. So, now I have her piece of shit car, which I hate with a mother fucking passion. Yes, this is her “punishment” for me leaving. Make my fucking life miserable. Plus, not to be to flippant with her business, but she has slept with 5 ppl just since we broke up. How does this seem right to her?? I mean c’mon. I have certainly done nothing like that. It hurts, you know. I actually care(d) about her. She was everything to me, and now, she is saying that I treated her badly and etc, etc. I just want to scream right now.

Yay!

Hi. I am currently in a good mood. I went to sleep at 11 (I was tired!!) and just woke up (at 4). It’s still earlier than I would like to be getting up, but I’m just happy that I’m not just now getting tired. 5 consecutive hours is a really good thing for me.

Next thing is that I got my Zoey Belle. We went and picked her up yesterday morning. She is absolutely adorable and sweet as can be. She still doesn’t recognize her name(how would she?), but I am working fervently on training her already. She hasn’t had any accidents **crosses fingers**, but we’ll see how that goes.

I am leaving her today to go to work at 11. It is my first day at PJ’s. Erica will be here all day, but I don’t know how well she’ll watch her. Hopefully she will keep up the standard that I’ve been setting. We’ll see.

I give up!

Ok, so as you can see, it’s 4 am. Now, I was doing so good earlier. I woke up on Saturday at 4:30 pm, didn’t sleep at all, except for a nap yesterday for about 3 hrs (I couldn’t stay awake), and went to sleep at 12 am. So, I was thrilled. Then, at 3 am, I woke up. No idea why. I just woke up, and sleep has hidden from me again. So, I got up and, as usual, there’s nothing on tv. So, here I am. Trying to be quiet and satisfy my boredom at the same time. I so give up on the sleep situation. I don’t know what else to do. I mean, c’mon. Ugh! I am really frustrated.

On the work front, I went in and did all my new hire paperwork. I am hoping that I will hear from HSPM, but I’m thinking that’s a no-go. And after they were so encouraging. Oh, well. So, back to PJ’s, I start tomorrow (Tues) at 11am. I’m glad, because we really need the money.

As for my puppy, we are going to get her today. We leave here at eight, so by lunchtime, I’ll have a new daughter. I’ve decided to name her Zoey Belle. She is absolutely adorable. She is ten weeks old. In order to get her, I had to turn on text messaging for Erica. **sigh** Oh, well, atleast I get my Zoey.

We went to the wonderful world of Wal-Mart last night, with Erica’s sis, A, and got Zoey some food and treats while we were there. I’m so excited. I feel like a little kid. Lol!

Which, reminds me that Erica’s car, now that we finally have it back, is still messed up. The heater was working just fine when we took it to get the hose fixed, and now it will not work at all. So, therefore, the defroster won’t work, either. Which is also really frustrating. I had to drive it home last night in REALLY cold weather (well, for AR atleast) with the window down. This is because I could see nothing through any window. Wonderful, right? Of course, this is totally unsafe. I give up on the car, too.

I’m so glad that we have my 4runner. I love that thing, and it works…lol! It is expensive, but there is nothing wrong with it. It needs to have an oil change and air filter change here pretty soon, but no problems. **knock on wood**

Erica is just laying over there in our humongous bed, her little tiny self, somehow spread over the whole bed. She is just adorable when she is asleep. Don’t try to wake her, though. You enter at your own risk when you wake the beast.

My neck has been hurting lately. My guess is that it’s from not really laying down lately. So, my neck never gets a break. Can your neck just get tired of holding your head up?? I might be delusional from the sleep deprivation.

Ok, well this hasn’t taken much time. I guess I am becoming a better typist, after all. However, I still have to occupy myself for about three hours before I can get Erica up. With nothing on tv, and getting tired of the internet, what will I do??

Ugh…

Ok, so yesterday I slept like 12 1/2 hours, and now I haven’t slept at all. Not a wink. The thing is that I’m not even the least bit tired. Hungry, yes. Tired, nope. Which, is a good thing at the moment, considering that it is 7:40 am. However, I’m not quite certain that I can manage to stay awake until 9:30 tonight, as that would be staying awake for 29 hours straight. Yet, if I don’t, this abhorrent cycle of backwards sleeping will continue for yet another indefinite period of time. So, I must force myself to stay awake. For my sanity, and the quality of my relationship. You see, Erica has had no trouble at all sleeping, so I am only aggravating her to no end, because I get incredibly bored at 3 am when I am tired of the internet, uninterested in infomercials, and unable to go anywhere else. Ugh!! So, I might have to break my no caffeine kick, and go for a mountain dew. Or 2 (hehe).

So, surprisingly, I managed to pick up the entire house, wash and put away all the dishes, get three loads of laundry washed, dryed, folded and put away, iron all of Erica’s work shirts, and take a shower in these past few hours. Not so surprisingly, my house was a mess, because along with lack of sleep, I have had a lack of energy and motivation. So, I really did need to clean up.

With that done, I am left with the dilemma of how to occupy my easily bored/easily distracted mind from 10:45 am today (when Erica goes to work) until 9 pm tonight (when I do). Other than shopping for a pair of khaki pants for work tonight, it will be a long 10 hours.

As for the puppy situation, Erica says that she’ll get her for me. Her name is Zoey, and we’ll be picking her up Monday. It’s about a two and a half hour drive, so we’ll probably leave here as soon as we get up. I’m really excited, because I have wanted to get a puppy for several years, but I haven’t been able to for one reason or another.

We are probably going to wait a little longer before trying to have a baby. There are a bunch of circumstances that changed recently, making it a less wise decision to become parents. Therefore, I am a little upset by that, but I know that it will be better for the baby if we do wait. I want to be able to give our child a good life, and I don’t want silly things to take away from his or her childhood. I had an awful childhood, and I wouldn’t wish that for anyone.

So, I think that is one of the main reasons that Erica agreed to the puppy. She knows that it will take my mind off of the baby situation for a little while, anyways. I don’t care, though. I’m just excited to be getting her.

Well, I guess I need to get off here and make some breakfast. I’m starving, and my computer is about to do the virus scan and updates in about 3 minutes. I don’t want to interrupt that. Especially after just getting the computer fixed.

I don’t understand it.

I haven’t been able to fall asleep for about a month, so I have been going to bed in the wee hours of the morning. Then, of course, I wasn’t getting up all that early, but I was still only sleeping like 6-8 hrs. Well, last night I went to sleep around four (earlier that usual), but I woke up about 4:30 this afternoon. That is 12 1/2 hrs. Totally way longer that I usually sleep. So, now I have a headache, of course, because I don’t usually sleep that long and my body doesn’t need that much sleep. Good god. Anyways, so we’ll see what happens tonight. I’m trying to get back on a schedule instead of this random sleeping thing. It’s quite irritating if you hadn’t guessed.

Also, if you can be suddenly addicted to blogging, I am. I only started about a week or so ago, and I now have two blogs, and I write everyday. I mean, that was the point of making them, but still. I got upset the other day, because I couldn’t get online (my computer was messed up). *sighs* Oh well, an addict I am. I guess once I start my new job, I’ll have less time, so it won’t be a big deal. I don’t know.

Ok, so I’ve wanted a miniature pinscher for years, right?? I haven’t been able to get one for several reasons. So, I found the most adorable puppy online last night. She is just so cute. So, hopefully (I dropped the hint pretty bluntly.) Erica will get her for me. Erica is my gf, btw. So, we’ll see what happens.

Oh, so my new job is at Papa John’s. I know. Totally exciting, huh? I could be delivering your pizza. Provided you live in Arkansas, that is. Anyways, I’m waiting on a phone call from the other new job that I should be getting, but they haven’t decided yet. If so, I’ll only keep PJ’s a few nights a week. We’ll see. Apparently, they were “impressed with my interview.” They being HSPM, the other job. Hopefully, I’ll get it. I have to wait until Monday to find out. **crosses fingers**

Well, as you can see, I am very hopeful. I am also very hungry. So, I’m going to scrounge through my vegetarian kitchen.